done with 6th semester ALREADY?

 hey everyone clementines here. 

yes that is absolutely correct i have finished this semester with just 30% of my soul left in me. this semester is insanelyy tiring so i wanna tell u what i have gone through this semester lol. what i'm about to tell you is the recap of what happened in the 6th semester of this year's uni.

first of all, it started with such CHAOS. for context, in where i came from, there's this thing called 'KRS' that you need to do in the beginning of every semester and that is you need to FIGHT yes literally FIGHT every single students in your uni to get a your courses. if you're fast and lucky enough you'll get the schedule that you want and also the 'right' lecturer/professors. and also you need to pay your tuition first before you can go to war for your courses lol.

okay so all that context now out of the way, in the beginning of this semester, i forgot to tell my parents about the tuition bills LOLL so i paid it off kinda late (it's not really late but it resulted in me doing my KRS kinda late). it got paid around 4 days after the start of the KRS day, and in those 4 days....boy oh boy.... the anxiety was through the roof.... i'm afraid all the classes with the schedule i wanted will already be taken by the time i did my KRS then my schedule will be messed up. but turns out...lol I WAS JUST OVERREACTING because THANK GOD this semester KRS 'war' was not as serious as the previous semesters so in the end i got all the classes with all the schedule i wanted [happy]

but of course that was just the beginning of the semester. after i did my KRS i somewhat just realized i took ELEVEN classes. all these classes summed up to 24 credit hours. and the most unbelievable thing i also did was taking a field course (even writing this is giving me PTSD lol). 

so, in these eleven classes with 24 credit hours, one of the classes and two of the credit hours belonged to the field course. AND OH MY GOD. in this field course, we were tasked with forming a committee responsible for the smooth operation of our fieldwork. knowing full well what i was getting into, i picked the academics division, and the responsibilities and workload turned out to be absolutely nuts. i know that losing sleep in uni is normal but this time is literally not...i feel like a zombie for the last 2 weeks before d-day of the field course. back and fourth consulting with the professors.....revisions...just normal insane things at uni but still i absolutely hated it lol. but this was also just the first half of it, the other half is finishing the outputs for this course and it was a book, maps, another book, another maps, and a bunch of 60 million other outputs that we need to do for this course.

did u think that was all the reason why this semester is literal hell? LOLL ur kinda funny i like u. that was only one class among the ELEVEN classes i took! did i tell u that i take ELEVEN classes this sem? did i? ELEVENNNNNN. the other ten classes was no better. in one of the classes the proffesor gave us assignment to make a book...and it's an individual task, in th ebeginning i thought yeah sure why not how hard could writing a book gonna be? TO HELL WITH EVERYBODY. i found zero to noneee of the sources about the book i'm writing, this happened for every single chapter i wrote for this book...soo little resource i cound quote from... im pretty sure for half the time i spent on making that book it was actually just me looking for journals and articles about the topic im writing lol. BUT i'm super proud of myself that i eventually finished the book with such litte resource LOL. 

there are so many more hell i went through this semester with all the classes and also the people but one thing i know is that i'm very proud of myself for overcoming this semester with such spirit! i finished this sem with term gpa of 3.9/4.0 (with the cost of my sanity and soul). 

if there are people reading this and feeling down and burnt out, i genuinely can't tell you anything but to just keep going!! it's only gonna hurt for a moment, i know it's tiring and you need everything to stop, if you're feeling this way please go buy yourself an ice cream and go take a walk around your campus (at 3/4 pm is the best), go to the library and find some new book you're interested to read! please hang on! the end of the semester is always gonna be right around the corner! i'm a stranger that have no idea who you are and i can tell you that YOU can finish this semester or even the whole uni years and accomplished your dream major!! if a stranger could do that, why can't you?

- Clementine, xx.