writing location: not home

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it's my first time writing when i'm away!! the past semester was so chaotic i couldn't even juggle writing my silly blog and doing my assignments. but here i am now! it's the second week of my third year here and i only have 2 classes to attend and all of them are on the same day...so..yeay 6 days off...?

though it might give you an impression that my uni life is now kinda boring since there is no whining for a relaxing day -because everyday is relaxing now- and i have no assignments to do, then you will be right. well actually to call my days 'relaxing' would NOT be correct because i have yet ANOTHER academic pressure i need to fulfil and that is wiriting my thesis. BOOOO TOMATO TOMATO

so without all the paper to write, classes to attend to, i actually have time for myself, toooo much and it made me super anxious because of the OTHER burden. i'm just starting to do the research to decide on what i want to do a research for, it's quiet confusing.....i'm thinking on writing on the deep learning topics but i guess it's a pretty new subject on the higher education matter...if that made sense? i also haven't decided on which school i'm doing my research on [cry] there's so much to do to start this journey huft.

OH and i also apply for the mentoring program! it's kinda like doing assistance for your professor- like going into his classes and whatnot- and i think it's gonna be fun? finger crossed my professor actually asked me to travel with him to do research and i got the credit for it! hell yeah

and now i'm sitting in a cafe, not doing anything on my thesis, pretending like i'm writing something super important after i put down my crochet hook after making a progress on my crochet book sleeve while sipping on my iced americano. couldn't be more performative. but i feel more at ease. though i think the americano at 10am is not a wise choice bcs i think i will be fidgeting like crazy for the whole day. 

i guess that's all for today's log? i hope i can catch a lot of stuff and put them here more than i did last semester :D.

-clementine, xx.

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